This whole ordeal has taught me many things and changed me in many ways. It taught me how to appreciate having a sip of water and not feeling nauseas, waking up in the morning and being able to eat, being able to walk without the aid of anyone. Those little things people take for granted but for someone like me I become extremely happy when I can do and enjoy such.
Most importantly it taught me happiness, contentment, and joy. Before I was diagnosed and got this sick I used to laugh at something funny, conversation, or what have you. I laughed yet I NEVER felt truly happy, I'd laugh on the outside yet on the inside I was sad (because of many reasons). My happiness was never complete because I was unhappy.
Fast forward to pain, cancer, chemotherapy, and physical/mental pain like you can't ever imagine, and I'm happy. When I laugh nowadays I feel the joy in my heart, I feel my insides giggle with joy, for once I truly feel the happiness and joy of laughter! When I laugh I truly laugh, even my laugh sounds different! Alf il7amdillah that through this misery I was blessed to see and experience the simplest joys of life that I took for granted when I was "Normal".
I wish you all joyous laughter that makes you understand what happiness is..
To laughing my dears..