Monday, 1 November 2010

Day 171/700th Post

It's quite odd not having to worry about chemo tuesday! Tomorrow will be the first time I won't have to wake up and get ready for Chemo Tuesday since 15th of May!! Since then my life was planned out for me, Tuesday chemo, in pain and depression till Sunday, nausea and fatigue hit till friday, Saturday till Monday I feel kinda "normal" and Tuesday back to chemo and so on.. For the past 5 months this was my life..

Now I dunno what to do! I don't have needles poking, veins to worry about, or just cancer related crap!

On a different note, my hair looks spasticated :/ From the back it's growing. And from the top it's falling!! Ysta3bi6 9a7!!

Dunoo what else.. I'm kinda lost.. I miss the old me.. But I like the sick me, she's proven against all odds that she's a tough cookie mashallah 3alay..

You know what I find silly; people are fretting about the most trivial things, can't find the right bag, so and so said so and so, lame ass girly things etc. And here I am fighting for my right to live while others cry over spilt milk! Not belittling anyone's problems but honest to God some ma3indhom salfa! But maybe that's how it is, if God blessed u with a good health u have nothing to worry about apart from crying about not finding the right lip gloss!

I like November.. Inshallah I'll hear good news in it and inshallah 2010 fucks off, Alah la y3odha. Shino sena ta3eesa :/

Well I'm running low on motivation and kinda convinced I'm not cured and will need more treatment.. INSHALLAH I won't need it bs the thought is there :/

p.s. This is my 700th post ! Damn I talk too much!!

13 comments:

MrMoNous said...

INshAllah one day you'll be healthy AND you'll be complaining about not finding the right purse. I'll remind you :)

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الزين said...

اجمل ما فيج روحج

تملكين روح شفافه تمتص الق وبريق كل اللي حولج

بكانسر او من غير كانسر

بكيمو او من غير كيمو

انتي انسانه جميله
جمييييييييله

:***

وان شاء الله ربي عداج الشر

o no more treatments

as said...

Ur hair will grow more beautiful, I promise! W ya rab ench tshaafeity w t3aafeity w matshufeen sharr f 7yaaatech again,, X

reemas said...

My birthday is in late November.
Guess what my birthday wish will be ?
I wish our beloved Fourme get cured ya rabbi inshallah :)
B.S. i told u to shave bold.. its sexy :p

Dont.Dwell said...

I heard this song oo automatically u can to mind !!!

Ihdaaaaaaaaaa2 <3

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright

I can tell by your eyes that you're not getting any sleep
And you try to rise above it, but feel you're sinking in too deep
Oh, oh I believe, I believe that

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright

I believe you'll outlive this pain in you heart
And you'll gain such a strength from what is tearing you apart
Oh, oh I believe I believe that

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright

When some time has past us, and the story if retold
It will mirror the strength and the courage in your soul
Oh, oh, I believe I believe,

I believe
I believe

I did not come here to offer you clichÈ's
I will not pretend to know of all your pain
Just when you cannot, then I will hold out faith, for you

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E9yNZ17j8Fg

Sweet Revenge said...

the 700th post amazing ,you talk

too much : yes

but we want to hear you :)

Dear :enjoy yourself and put

everything behind ,be happy and

healthy remember it’s a wonderful

world and wating for you .

Anonymous said...

enshala end of the yr etkoon senat khayr 3alech ya al ghalya w nefra7 bradetech cured healthy n happy... love u four .

N

Dave in Doha said...

Keep talking. We don't want to hear your silence.

q8othug said...

OMG your growing a Skullet ?!??!!

http://www.lunch.com/Awesomeness/Lists-163-2641-Best_Types_of_Mullets_.html

hahahahaha

Tuesday with no chemo should be a happy Tuesday so be happy

happy happy joy joy
*repeat and fade*

RainDrop said...

You reminded me of what most soldiers get when they come from battlefields.. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder..

They are used to being on edge for months or even years and they come back home to quiet and peaceful. They can't adjust to that..

You're exactly the same, u got so used to the sickness that life has become boring to u.. in a way.

But, u can always talk here :P We're not letting go of u, cancer or not!! Hopefully NOT.

Inshallah no treatments ever!

*hugs*

Anonymous said...

WE LOVE YOU FOURME!!

Allah eyshafeech ya rab!!!!! :*

well wishers from Bahrain

Hope said...

oh yeah November is a good month ;p
InShallah bethn Allah, very soon u'll B posting some good news
Allah yfare7na feech inShalla
'3da e.shar :***