Thursday, 14 October 2010
Before all this begun I used to hear about how important support is to help you through tough times.. Me being the person who detests sharing her feelings with others thought this was bull crap!!
Little did I know that support was beyond crucial during such times! I'm blessed truly blessed mashallah to be surrounded with people that love me this much and willing to support me.. Now family support that's given.. My aunts keep going back and forth to be around me.. Friends well i dont want to call them friends because there are 2 whom i will consider sisters till the last day of my life o madri shlon a6la3 mn yzahom.. My Turkish friend and my other girlfriend whom did the impossible and came to London, those 2 ladies are beyond amazing!
My support system doesn't end there it's just the beginning.. Anony, Zawi, and Soulo the crazy chick.. Those 3 are irreplaceable, they are my 3 precious gifts from God that I will cherish for eveeeeer... Wait doesn't end there! Here comes in my dearest Danderma and Palomino whom I absolutely adore :*
Hold on I'm not done :p Now not only I am loved and supported by all the fabulous people I have mentioned above but God has blessed me, truly blessed me il7amdillah by letting strangers, bloggers and readers whom I have never met to support me blindly and support me every inch of the way! Sometimes I wonder what have I done in my life to deserve s0 much love from people I know and don't know! I even asked mother the same question, her response was "you're a good person that never hurt anyone".. Of course no one is perfect and I have my bad moments but yes I do consider myself a good person and as a reward God has blessed me with the love of hundreds of people from family, friends, bloggers, and strangers.. Now do you see why I say il7amdillah?
All of you who have "figuratively speaking" held my hands through this tough time, by reading, praying, or simply asking about me are my support system, which is priceless.. Any person going through a life changing phase needs support and especially if it's cancer, they need all the help they can get.. So yes my darlings you all are my rock.. You all are the thing that keeps me on my feet and pushes me forward to beat this bastard.. To you a comment is bunch of words.. To me its much more.. It's strength, it is a force, it is an unseen helping hand that pats me on the back and tells me 'we are here for you'.. I swear to you, you will never know how your support has gotten me through some really tough times. Around May when it was truly bad, I can't remember who left a comment.. I would be on the floor passed out from morphine or fuck knows what drug they had me on and have no energy to move, I remember that comment and force myself to focus even though I was dizzy and as good as dead, I'd pick myself up and try to cope with it.. It got me through rough times.. And it was simply a comment.. I think it was by Cateyes but i don't remember now.. There are comments that bring me to tears.. Tears of joy that I have such love and support from the unknowns :)
I wish I can do something in return, but I can't instead in my prayers I pray to God to bless and protect every person that has raised their hands to God and prayed for me.. Rabi ywafgkom dinya w akhra :*
Alf il7amdillah 3ala hal ni3ma ely matqdar ebthman..
Much Appreciated my darlings :*