Chemo- 10 & More..

- 10 Chemo's down. 2 to go!

- So very very tired..

- All your comments on previous posts mean the world to me.. Thank u sO much

- Keep the motivational chit chat coming in :)

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A Day in a Cancer Patients' Life

Now don't think I have the energy to write this after chemo! As if! Wrote it a day earlier.. Now let me tell you how Chemo day goes.. I wake up around 7am take meeds for an hour then can have breakfast. The day at hospital lasts between 7 to 9 hours! IT'S EXHAUSTING! After breakfast I try my best to dress up, put on make up, and look as if I'm going out with friends.. I need my mood to be cheerful to tolerate the crap am gonna go through for the rest of the day.. By that time my friend that comes from Turkey every 2 weeks for chemo has arrived. I gather my chemo bag and we leave for the hospital..

( chemo bag consists of the following: medication, 2 liter filtered Volvic water, pufaak, chocolates, banana, iPod, pashmina, sweets ) yaa just like a picnic bag :/

My appointment is usually at 10am, I arrive they take my blood pressure, heart rate, temperature, weight. I wait for about 30 minutes then they call me for blood tests.. And here the needle poking starts :( sometimes they can't find a vein so they gotta poke around till they find it.. And they MUST take blood from arm that won't be used for chemo, so chemo on left, blood tests from right arm..

After that I wait for an hour or more till results are back so I can see doctor, if all is ok and my bloods are ok and above certain level then they okay me for chemo. My file gets sent to the pharmacy where they prepare chemo according to my weight.. This process take about 2 to 3 hours.. By then we usually head to Starbux and have a light lunch. We head back and they make me take a pill that prevents nausea one hour before chemo. After the hour passes they try to put in the cannula, ohhh that's the fun part! Because of so much chemo it's hard to find veins so they stick my arm in literally boiling water so they pop out.. Cannula in, they start with pushing 2 injections, one steroid to give me energy during chemo, and another for nausea. I take a mix of 4 chemos, which last a total of 2 hours.. The first three last about an hour, and the final one last an hour by itself. As soon they start pushing the injection my friend stays quiet and I switch on 9orat Elbaqara on my BB and listen to it throughout chemo till I'm done.. It's the only thing that prevents me from breaking down and dying of tiredness and pain..

Funny thing is in morning I enter laughing and joking, and when I'm done from chemo around 7pm I have to be picked up from chair and held till I get in the car because I cannot stand on my own feet.. I reach home as good as dead.. My mother changes my clothes for me and feeds me, yea I can't even hold a spoon, it's too heavy. I feel like hell till I fall asleep.

From Tuesday till Sunday those are the real days of torture.. Pains, aches, nausea, lethargy, and unbelievable psychotic depression that causes me to cry 6 or 7 time a day.. I feel like I'm in a glass box in those days. It's hell beyond all hells that I cannot even put in words.. After Sunday I lose taste, anything I eat or drink is tasteless and is horrible. I don't regain my strength till the following sat or sun and then on Tuesday couple days later I take chemo again :)

I shall disappear for the next couple of days because as you know by now it's those hellish days.. Ham arid wagool Alf ALF il7amdillah for this cancer and not a worse one.. So please continue praying for me because this ain't over yet..

FourMe over and out..