I'm suffocating.. I feel like I'm in a glass container that I cannot escape.. I don't know whether its the chemo's side effects or this is how every cancer patient feels.. I'm depressed beyond the point of depression.. Its very difficult very hard to take it all in and live with it day in and day out.. I cannot do anything, I cannot go anywhere, my immune is down so being around people is dangerous. I don't have the energy to do anything, not in the mood to read, watch tv, talk or do anything. I cannot I'm suffocating.. I don't wanna be around people..
I don't know what to do, I feel like exploding yet I can't, I wanna scream yet I can't, I wanna blow up out of my skin yet I can't. I cannot do anything.. I'm a prisoner in my own skin. I can't escape the situation and time is passing by very very very very slowly.. I wake up, take meds, eat, take meds, eat, take meds, sleep. I barely sleep I wake up 10 million times and horrible side effects during sleep. Mako ra7a la wana ga3da wla wana nayma.. I'm suffocating.. I'm trying to be positive, INSHALLAH its just a phase and will pass but mani gadra now this instance this time being this time am going through.. Its not passing..
Ya rabi er7amni w 9abirni :( Its very very very difficult.. Please pray for me that rabi ya36eeni e9abir o ygaweni :( I dunno what else to say or do except beg God for mercy..