How do you cope day in and day out with this? There is no manual that teaches you how to behave or how to act or how to accept it. You have to go through it blindly just taking it one day at a time.
People think by asking you 24/7 how you feel will make u feel better not knowing its just like rubbing salt in a wound that they're constantly reminding you of. How do feel 2 hours after they asked the first 10 times? I feel the same, I have no energy, I still have cancer, and N0 I cannot be upbeat about it.
How can you when realistically you know its a deadly disease?! Yes inshallah I will get cured but do you know I'm at risk of heart attack, lung failure, kidney failure, blood clots, zero immune system and shit load of other things! Not forgetting that there is a chance its not curable and death is inevitable after a long tortuous journey. I'm not being negative I'm just facing what I'm dealt. Yet still knowing its possible my hair will fallout, eyebrows and eyelashes terrifies the fuck out of me.. Its scary.. Yes might not happen and might happen..
Every 2 seconds I get a scare from a new side effect and its just been a week not 6 months! I'm getting a pain in the lower part of my head now, they already MRI'd my head and it was clear. But if this pain doesn't subside in 2 days I have to go back for more testings. Ya rabi 1 thing at a time I beg of you. Ma feni at7mal kil youm khar3a kafy 3alay lal7en madri 3an el bone marrow ely mo rathy y6la3 elresult which btw I have a feeling it already reached..
I dunno what the fuck am saying anymore. This is way T00 much to digest. La 7awla wla quwata ela billah el3aley el3atheem..