I'm under so much pressure as it is and one thing that makes me literally lose my anger, temper, and calmness is when someone suggests I seek second opinion!! I know they are asking me to do so because they care about me BUT hello NO ONE is going to CARE about me and LOVE me more than I love myself! In the past 2 months I've been subjected to various testings and different doctors and now when finally after NINE LONG HORRIBLE MONTHS I've been finally diagnosed they want me to seek second opinion!! As horrible as Cancer is I was relieved that FINALLY someone could diagnose me and spare me the 11 painkillers a day and dreadful pain I was going through and doctors telling me "We don't know"!
*At the first hospital:
-6 doctors from 3 different fields
-2 muscle histologists
*2nd 3rd opinion from a world renown doctor in Germany and Kuwait.
They could NOT diagnose me..
*Let me break it down for you, I've had the following tests done to reach Cancer:
- Near to 30 times of full blood tests
- Hip ultra sound
- 8 X-Rays
- 2 MRI Scans for back
- 1 MRI scan for head
- 1 CT Scan
- 1 PET Scan
1 Muscle aspiration
1 Core muscle needle biopsy
1 Removal of full lymph node from neck (cut)
1 Removal of full node from thigh (cut)
1. And finally the MOST painful of all Bone Marrow biopsy
*Treatment wise I have a team of doctors on my case:
1. Professor, Head of the Gastrointestinal, Lymphoma, and Hodgkin's Disease
1. Medical Oncologist
1. Clinical oncologist
2. Registrar Doctors
1. A Specialist nurse that is on speed dial that I can speak to 24/7 to answer any query.
Stage 4 Hodgkin's Lymphoma
ABVD Chemotherapy, 12 sessions for 6 months..
20 pills a day..
And I already had 1 chemotherapy session.. I WILL NOT SEEK SECOND OPINION! Knowing its cancer is a million times better than NOT KNOWING what it is! So assuming all the above information is incorrect and I've been misdiagnosed I AND ONLY I AM TO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR MY MEDICAL CHOICES!! I do not want to fucking hear ONE more person utter the word SECOND opinion to me! I don't care what you think I care about what I've been subjected to and it was HELL. So kindly respect my choice if you please and back off..