+You know what I miss the most?! Mcdonaldes :( I'm craving Mcdonaldes like you wouldn't believe and I cannot have it till am cured inshallah.. I'm forbidden from eating at restaurants and certain foods because of bacteria and germs which could bring my immune system crashing down causing much delay to treatment and hospitalisation..
+Even water I'm on restriction! I shouldn't drink bottled water and the only water I've been drinking my entire life is Volvic! They say its not clean and could cause harm and I should drink tap water filtered in one of those drinking jugs. I couldn't, the taste was horrid, so I started filtering the Volvic water through the jug thingy and drinking it. Its either that or I'll die of thirst cuz I can't stand regular water and I gotta drink at least 2 litres a day :/
+I smell like a giant baby.. I cannot use regular shampoos, soaps, etc. Everything gotta be for sensitive skin so now I use Baby Johnson :/ Even my body cream that I've been using since a teenager I can't use it and have to use E45 cuz its got less whatever chemicals in it..
+I cannot be exposed to the sun as it damages my skin and ruins effect of chemo. Imagine today was hell hot and I had to wear a long dress with a long sleeved wool cardigan :( I was dying of the heat jahaanim 7aar :/
+Alf alf alf il7amdillah my Bone Marrow results came back negative :D it hasn't reached.. I have CLEAN bone marrow :D awesomeness.. You know 2 months ago a distant relative 25 year old was diagnosed with cancer and needed bone marrow transplant and they couldn't find him a match.. Even though I was so ill I offered to be tested to see if I was a match and give him some.. Little did I know I have cancer and I myself was feared to need bone marrow transplant one day!! Life is funny..
+How can I not thank God a million times when I've still got use of my hand, legs, brain, and senses!! I saw people at hospital with amputated arms and many organs taken out.. We take so much for granted that we are dumb ass blinded by it.. Thank you God for this illness and Thank you a thousand times that its this form of cancer and not worse.. Alf alf il7amdillah 3ala kil 7al o 3ala hal ni3ma ely ana feha..