They say by the 2nd session of chemo the hair will start to fall off.. My next one is on the 1st of June. Before the 1st session I chopped 3/4 of its length off so I get used to the idea of having short hair..
A bit ago I stood in front of the mirror and held all my hair back imagining how I would look bald.. For the first time I behaved like a cancer patient.. They say some people keep their hair, others lose some, and some go bald.. I wouldn't be able to see chunks fall off I wouldn't be able to bear it.. If it starts falling am shaving it all off.. I'm scared shitless of how its gona look.. I don't care about the hair it'll grow back but am just afraid of the initial shock.. And God forbid if my lashes and brows fall as well.. God its gona be tough to face myself in the mirror..
Its tough to be a woman and know that any day now you'll go bald.. This is a very difficult disease.. It really shreds you to pieces in every sense.. It strips you of everything, your dignity, your femininity, your identity, your dreams, of everything you had or aspired to have. It holds you in an iron clasp and won't let go till it sucked the life out of you either metaphorically or physically. May God help everyone who went or is going through this disease..