Wednesday, 19 May 2010

it may KILL u!

Since first chemo the world has been spinning around, literally spinning around. I cannot lift my head off the pillow because everything around me is whizzing in circles and I have to either have pillows on my side to prevent me from tilting and falling to the side or have someone hold me if I want to walk. On top of that the deadly nausea. I feel my insides want to leap out of my body. It's torture in every sense I swear to u it is HELL!

So yesterday instead of 5 anti-sickness pills I'm prescribed they changed them to 8 and that my dears screwed me. It had me on the floor hitting my head because it all got worse times infinity.

Today they changed them to 2 stronger meds. Some sort of steroids and (anti-steroids) to get me to sleep at night. I took only 1 pill out of 3 and it helped but as soon as the 5 hours were up am hit with the torture again so just took the 4th night pill and doesn't seem so effective. The funny thing is I was reading the leaflet and it said " If you stop this medication suddenly it might lower your blood pressure and IT MAY KILL YOU". Seriously?! Do I look like I need to be terrified anymore than this?! So yaa it will cure the nausea and dizziness but it MAY kill me!! Awesomeness! Cheers to the fabulous pharmacist who created this drug..
Thank u mate!


Dont.Dwell said...

Allah y9abrch 3ala hal 7al wyshafeech inshalla...

Q80BOY said...

LOL great pharmacist! :P

I was listening to this song yesterday, dedicated to you, and all the people who are suffering!

When you walk through the storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm
There's a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of the lark

Walk on, through the wind
Walk on, through the rain
Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

That's Liverpool's anthem ..remember you'll never walk alone, you got us by your side!

Fajer said...

You're going thru MY worst nightmare,nausea, oo I know you think ur not taking it well. 9adgeni I see you wa7es lo ana eb mokanech chan a9lan madre. BSS YOU'RE strong. Kafi u have the energy to type. You have the courage to share this. You want to talk, you want to vent. That means ur head is in the right place and u want to get over this by any means possible. Walla ur the best inspiration for everyone out there going thru something similar. There will be hard days like these, bs enshalla there will always be better days. Ur eb d3watna all the time. ;*

Average.Q8i said...

Ur Lucky u have u ..

WSS said...

I dunno what to say , But at least we have hope wetha radaitay bel salama everything gonna be fine . tell us how curable is your disease , we need more details about your condition .

We Missed u "FourMe The Angry Women"

Smart CoOKie said...

This may sound insensitive but umm DON'T stop the medication suddenly!

Luv you. Stay strong XOXO.

Fate said...

I don't no what to say except Allah ye3eenich.
Hope I can offer anything other than prayer

Q80thug said...

at first i was T_T
cause i have witnessed cancer but not lived it

but then i was like .\/.
lets fucking do this!

i believe you will come out of this nightmare. and i wanted to thank you as well because whenever i hear stories like yours i start praying for mercy (my altercation with cancer didnt end well) but now i will break the this vicious cycle and pray for your restored health instead. ^^

whenever you feel down and reaching rock bottom come to my blog for laugh or chuckle.