+ OMG I have cancer. I still cannot fully digest it. People call to console my mother 24/7 and I get this feeling why are they over reacting its just cancer (like its the flu). Then I remember how I felt when a family member was diagnosed with it and it hit me CANCER is a deadly disease. A shattering destroying energy drenching disease. Yes I FourMe a 29 year old in love with life am a Cancer patient. I tell u even if I repeat it a million times I cannot believe it.. Its honestly ra7ma mn Alah that when u have it you cannot acknowledge it because if you do it will destroy you.
+ Today for the first time in 3 weeks I took a shower by myself. For the past weeks mother has to bathe me everyday because either am too dizzy or my cuts haven't healed yet and I cannot move freely. Do u know how humiliating it is to be naked in front of your mother at this age!?
+ Since I started chemo I cannot eat chicken, meat, or anything sweet. As well I don't eat seafood so its safe to say I'm becoming a vegetarian :( I feel sick to my stomach at the sight of them.
+ I'm Stage 4 Hodgkins Lymphoma. The tumour is in lower right muscle in back, lymph nodes in neck, nodes going through my chest, diaphragm, liver, right thigh, and damaged hip bone around the muscle where tumour is. Bone marrow results come out next week and inshallah ya rab its negative. They say I have 80% survival rate but they can give all percentage they want it won't matter, its all in God's hands.
+ My knees and feet are swelling up and doctors say that's rare! Yes because I'm a rare girl!! I get a disease that hits 2 people out of every 100,000 and the rare sides effects.. Alf il7amdillah honestly il7amdillah because I know it can be worse. I can't drink anything cold or room temperature because I get pain in my abdomen. I think its cause my liver isn't functioning well. Well that's enough blah blah talk for today..
+ Oh no one more thing, the anti-steroid pill yesterday almost gave me a heart attack. My heart was jumping out of my neck the veins could be seen a mile away and mother had to force feed me while I was literally falling asleep in her arms. I guess the food absorbed some of the meds effects and it knocked me out till this morning.. And on this note I bid you good night my lovelies as I have to go and take that medicine again....