Saturday, 7 August 2010


I'm fed up of everything..

Tired of being sick..

Tired of getting worse..

Exhausted of the Chemo..

Bored of home..

I don't have the energy nor the will to fight it anymore..

Il7amdillah 3ala kil 7al but lord I'm begging you for mercy..


Well Wisher said...

اللهم إني أشهد أنك وحدك لا شريك لك الرحمن الرحيم، لا راحم لنا سواك، فارحمنا برحمتك التي وسعت كل شيء يا أرحم الراحمين

Ms Loala said...

Inshalla everything will be ok sweety, enty be 5aly emanech b allah qawi wa 5ally ma3naweyatech 3alya ;*

Herolike! said...

I found you on Twitter.

Please don't give up.

I think it says a lot about the collective human spirit that I am especially concerned about you pulling through this as a complete stranger.

Don't give up. I respect your strength and courage and am already invested in you pulling through.

I leave you with as much love as a person who doesn't know you can.

Surprisingly a lot. :)

Hope said...

حبيبتي انتي

الله يهون عليج و يصبرج
الله يشافيج و يعافيج
لا تيئسين من رحمة ربج .. تذكري ان الله ابتلاج لانه يحبج


DuchessX said...

dont ever give up! if god can get you to it he will get you through it! just a little more patience and will power o enshallah allah ma3ach xxx

Dana said...

Be strong !
you can do it and beat this fucking cancer ENSHALLA

Anonymous said...

"If children have the ability to ignore all odds and percentages, then maybe we can all learn from them. When you think about it, what other choice is there but to hope? We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up, or Fight Like Hell."

Lance Armstrong

Anonymous said...

Throughout this blog it says you are a fighter but you have to find your strength at times like these. This will one day be over, it may seem a long time away, but it will end, inshalla in good health!
I admire your strength and spirit!

"Fall seven times, stand up eight."

Ansam said...

Stay strong and kick its ass! You can do it! Ajer o 3afiaa

foshyaa said...

ajer o 3afya fourme u'll get well soon enshala o dont give up o seraay qaweeya ;*

eshda3wa said...

ajer oo 3afyah my dear fourme

Standy said...

The fight is almost over..
allah ye9abarik o yeshfeeki..

your always in my prayers..

CatEyes said...

i cant relate and i dont think anyone who hasnt had cacner can.. alot of things are easy to say because we're not going thru what ur going thru.. bas know ena the weakness ur feeling wel shu3oor ena u wanna give up is just u being tired of putting up with everything and having a brave face on and not seeing the results u want to see.. in theory its easy to say yalah be positive wet3adi 3ala khair just stay strong thru it bas hatha mu shay be3addi eb sehoola and its not gonna be fast either.. i know ur strong.. u know ur strong.. everyone can see it.. u'll be fighting it in no time ba sin the meantime take a break seeray dalloo3a be whiny and bitchy weli mu 3ajba well screw them.. everyone else will be praying for u and fighting for u until ur back on ur feet.. fa ekhthay ra7tech we all know ur gonna beat this anyway.. <3
- cat eyez

falantan said...

Salam Fourme, 3asalla ysabrech o ya36ech ili7tesab ya Rab.

here's a few of irrasool's saying pbuh that might help you inshalla:

قال صلى الله عليه وسلم : « إذا أراد الله بعبده الخير عجّل له العقوبة في الدنيا، وإذا أراد الله بعبده الشرّ أمسك عنه بذنبه حتى يوافى به يوم القيامة » (صحيح الجامع : 308)

قال صلى الله عليه وسلم : « ما يزال البلاء بالمؤمن والمؤمنة في تفسه وولده وماله حتى يلقى الله تعالى وما عليه خطيئة » (صحيح الجامع : 5815)

قال صلى الله عليه وسلم : « إن الرجل ليكون له المنزلة عند الله فما يبلغها بعملٍ ، فلا يزال الله يبتليه بما يكره حتّى يبلّغه إيّاها » (صحيح الجامع : 1625)

قال صلى الله عليه وسلم : « يودّ أهل العافية يوم القيامة حين يُعطى أهل البلاء الثواب لو أن جلودهم كانت قُرضت في الدنيا بالمقاريض » (صحيح الجامع : 8177)

قال صلى الله عليه وسلم : « يقول الله تعالى : ما لعبدي المؤمن عندي جزاء إذا قبَضتُ صفيّه من أهل الدنيا ثم احتسبه إلا الجنة » (أخرجه البخاري)

قال النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « إنّ عظم الجزاء مع عِظَم البلاء، وإنّ الله تعالى إذا أحبّ قوماً ابتلاهم، فمن رَضِيَ فله الرضا، ومن سَخِطَ فله السخط » (صحيح الجامع : 2110)

So you see Fourme, the best you can do right now is to hope for Allah's reward from all this. and be wary of resentment, as it only destroys your reward.

Allah ysabrech inshalla.

Anonymous said...

healing thoughts
hope you feel better today

Lost said...

dont give up honey... the worst is over inshallah ma bega shay until ur chemo ends ;/ we're all praying for you... enshallah allah ystjeeb do3a2na