Saturday, 10 July 2010
But ur Sick!
There are days where I feel "normal" I can move around get out of bed, clean, go out, and just resume day-to-day life.. And there are others where I'm as weak as a new born, I have to be held just to stand on my feet.. What bugs me is on the few good days when I'm energetic and able to be normal I get treated like a sick person :( Everyone around me gets a heart attack if I move.. They wanna do everything for me.. I know its to make me comfortable.. But on those few days I would LOVE to forget that am sick and just be a "normal" person.. Instead I get bombarded with "No No don't do that I'll do it for you".. I have energy I will do it.. I don't I won't.. Its not up to me, my body dictates my moves, even if I wanna push myself I cannot.. If I have No energy that means I have NO energy..
I hate that feeling I get when they make me feel sick, I am already sick, but I don't want to be treated like a sick person... Yes I joke around about cancer and play the "I have cancer, now go get me ice cream :p " cancer card but there are times where I want to forget I have cancer.. I don't want to be asked how am doing.. Ukhh its just frustrating to be sick and treated like the sick..