It's been 30 days since my first chemotherapy! I can't believe 30 days have passed already.. If all goes as planned that's One month down and Five to go!! My 3rd session is on Tuesday :/ The 2nd one was REALLY difficult no make that really really difficult.. My pains have increased, hair fell out more, exhaustion, nausea worsened, basically it was BAD!
They did say the 2nd chemo would be difficult but did say my pain would lessen, but it didn't.. I'm just hoping my body is responding to the chemo :/ After the 4th chemo they will scan me and see if the tumour has minimised and the rest of cancer has fucked off.. I'm terrified.. If I don't respond to the current chemo they will change it to a MUCH stronger one and has long-term side effects, if I'm not mistaken I have to take it every 3 days with extra chemo pills and a whole lot of a shitty extra hospitalisation :(( I'm scared..
Pray for me that the 3rd session won't tire me as much as the 2nd one did :( It was really HORRIBLE!! What's worse now they MUST take me off the Steroid medication! No matter how tired and nauseas I am they won't give it to me.. That med gives me energy, makes me eat and drink, and basically keeps me alive! Now they wanna take me off it!!!! So ya I aint so hopeful about the 3rd session :(( Alah yastir!
Yet 30 days have passed.. And I'm still enduring it and battling it like hell.. Its very difficult more than you can ever imagine.. Its physically and mentally excruciatingly painful.. Inshallah God gives me the strength to get through this and doesn't get worse with the coming sessions.. Did I tell you that they say by the 4th session my mood swings and temper will go through the roof!! Imagine my already crappy temper with extra induced horrible temper! Wow that's gona be super fun!! Really pray for me..
p.s. Englaaaaaaaaaaand to Win!! (Yes a girl can dream)