Thank you to everyone. I don't have the energy nor the heart to thank each one separately because am still well.. shocked.. but honestly you have no idea how much you're all helping..
I escaped from the hospital :p well not really I was meant to stay in from yesterday till monday for my scans at least.. but I cut a deal with the doc to let me out today and I'll go back tomorrow noon.. I'm very dizzy like super dizzy I can't stay focused and try to sleep as much as i can.. I have a new friend there, he's a male nurse his name is Lucas.. he's a pretty boy and super nice to me.. though my cousin thinks he's hitting on me hehe..
I have to do a 5th and most painful biopsy on monday.. bone marrow.. last month i did one under local and was HELL and painful. and on tuesday I had 3 done under general anaesthetic. and still in pain.. but the one on monday i must be awake so local with some sedation.. I'm gona get tortured from the pain I know it..
By the way if you don't have the heart to read this i suggest you come back in six months inshallah when am cured because I will pour my heart and soul here till I get better.. cuz family and friends SUCK cuz am comforting them and making them feel better not the opposite.. they are a mess.. i loved them all so much..
I'm only dreading one thing about the chemo therapy, silly enough not the physical pain cuz I don't wanna think about that i know will be hell.. But I'm scared of losing my hair.. I know it will grow back but I like my hair I cant imagine myself without it.. maybe after my first chemo next week I'll cut it shorter and when it starts to fall I'll shave it off.. My God I don't know how to cope with this..
I'm worried about my mother she's.. well you can imagine what she's going through.. I'm her only child.. Alah y9abirha o ya7fith'ha inshallah..
Ohh and if you thought i was bitchy before just wait and see am gona be worse :p at least now I have an excuse :p
Okay seriously please pray for me that I don't feel much pain.. I'm too fragile for this.. physically, , mentally, and emotionally.. Alf il7amdillah 3ala kil 7al :)