I have never ever NEVER in my entire life felt pain like I felt today! I wouldn't even wish this pain on an enemy..
To begin with I was beyond terrified and my nerves were beyond shattered.. Come time for the procedure I was reassured that with the local anaesthetic I wouldn't feel much.. YA RIGHTTTT! All they said was I'd feel the anaesthetic injection and just some discomfort.. Aha ahaa bull shit.. I felt pain like I have NEVER felt.. I didn't feel it in my body I felt it my soul.. I felt my soul was being ripped out of my body.. and as if that wasn't enough I had to go through that ripping feeling 3 times. And each time was worse than the other.. I cried like a child.. thank God for the nurse who was holding my hand through it.. i crushed her hands :/ poor thing I wouldn't let go of her :( She was truly an angel..
The doc who did the procedure is one of the docs on my case.. He's so arrogant that I wanna smack him! I'm all for being realistic and telling me up front how I will feel but this goddamn doc has a knack for scaring me and telling me the worst even when its not that bad :( For fuck sake can't ya just be a bit less terrifying! Hmm my heart rate is through the roof and blood pressure below low.. they wouldn't let me leave the hospital for 3 hours till my pressure got better.. it didn't so I just left.. i feel like I have been beaten with a baseball bat.. i just wish this would be over with :(
Oh yesterday I was in SOOO much pain that I took strong painkillers and I got so dizzy in the middle of the night that I was about to collapse and I hit the wall and cut the inside of my lip and it started bleeding :D