I hate doctors I really really do.. I've been seeing so much of them lately that I've been feeling sick to my stomach every time I have to go see one :(
Since Dec its been doctors almost every week for either mother or I :( Starting from Dec 2 operations for mother and since then every 2 weeks a visit to the pink doc. And then started with visit to my doc for change of painkillers for back pain. ER for back pains. Then back pain specialist. Blood tests for back pains. MRI for back pain. Doctor visit for sudden kidney pain. Ultrasound for kidney. Back to Doc for kidney pain (kidney fine but they dunno what's causing pain). Another visit to my doc. Gyno. Blood tests for gyno. Physio. Today pink doctor. After tomorrow ultrasound for back pain. Day after that physio. Then next month back to back pain doctor. And regular physio appointments to be set. FUCK ME!
The past 3 months have been filled with doctors and hospitals and news of relatives being sick. My left arm hurts like fuck cuz they can only draw blood from one vein. And give injections in it. I used to get lost in the hospital but now I know it like the back of my hand. I already hated doctors, hospitals, and was scared shitless from injections. I can't stand the stench of hospitals anymore, it's nauseating. Injections have become a norm. Every doctor tells me either I'm having rare side effects or they cannot diagnose cuz they don't know what's causing the pain! La3at chabdi walaa la3at chabdi.. On top of that the 3-5 painkillers a day with gyno pills and patches and excruciating migraines. And worrying about mothers health accompanied with sleepless nights. I have never felt this exhausted. And fucked up useless people drama.
Oh yess who was it that said I should be happy? I know it could be worse and alf alf il7amdila 3ala hal 7al but honestly I'm tired. And I need a shoulder to lean on and not to cry on. I'm just freaking tired, exhausted, and DEAD worn out..
p.s. I'm writing this as am seated in a hospital. Yaa that's where I blog from these days, waiting areas in hospitals..