I keep on writing posts and just before clicking on the publish button I delete them.. At that moment it hits me that there are "Real" people reading these posts and not just little names with cute dp pics! Yes that's how I see you all just as names.. The only way that I am able to spill my guts is by thinking that there is no one reading this blog and every time I post it's just random words scattered across cyber space.. I think of people who comment as computer generated names that leave random comments.. Silly I know..
See I am unable to open up I've always been like that, that's why I started blogging so I can learn to talk just talk and mumble things out.. I don't wanna give tips, recipes, promote, or do fuck knows what else, all those are perfectly good reasons to blog as a blog is your home and one can do what ever the fuck they want in their home.. I just wanna talk, this is my home, and I just wanna talk.. But lately I haven't been able to do so because people are nosey bastards and they wanna find the ins and outs of your life! I'm nobody, I'm a random girl, I'm someone that just wants to talk and honestly doesn't care if anyone listens.. Why have interest in a person who is just one of the masses?! A random girl that won't add or lessen a thing to your life.. Just a damn girl.. This is my home and I should be left alone to do as I please in it without having peeping toms lurk around..
It shocks me to see that this blog has been viewed over a 100,000 times in 2 years (mind you 99,999 are all Anony refreshing the page)!! Goddamn me I ain't talking to myself after all and there ARE people who read this crap :/ I've even noticed that some people check the blog couple times a day! I FourMe a girl who talks about bullshit became a part of strangers lives, I became part of their routine.. For example, one of the random readers checks the blog roughly at (KWT time) 5am, 11:30am, 4pm, 11pm and the cycle continues everyday! Its flattering yet shocking that a person can be that interested in the bullshit I say! Really do you think one day am gonna post about the secrets of the universe?! I don't know these people yet I'm in their lives.. The idea is starting to freak me out a bit here.. Mind you I've been smacked with a heavy dose of freaking out and paranoia lately, trust me I have valid reasons to do so!
My point is this post is about bullshit and I just said nothing and I wasted your time and have been doing so for the past 2 years.. I feel like I owe you people something :/ Like I should take each one of you out for a cuppa coffee or something and apologise personally for wasting your time.. No wait I did have a point.. Point is it that there are "Real" people who read this crap and I should watch what I say and probably should shut the fuck up :|