Temper is gone.. Not gone gone No gone out of control gone.. I'm back to snapping, raising my voice, and not being able to control it anymore.. Its like tug of war, I manage to keep it under wraps for a while then it blows up again.. I need.. I MUST control it.. Its truly a monster.. And spare me the philosophical bull crap of justification and meditation, won't work here. My temper is a monster that cannot be tamed.. Its intensity lessens yet can never be controlled.. No one can tolerate my temper.. I can't tolerate my temper..
I know how bad it can reach and if I don't control it one way or the other it will reach that horrible stage.. I really don't want to be a slave of my temper.. It's one mean sadistic bitch that has no mercy and knows no mercy.. ..