Tuesday, 10 February 2009

you win..


I'm fed up and tired!! I feel like I'm in a constant struggle with every thing and everyone.. I keep on trying to get things done but its just not happening no matter how much I try I can't get anything to go my way.. I feel everyone is on the opposite side and I'm all alone on my side.. No matter how much I try the opposite end always wins.. I tried to choose my own life not have it chosen for me like I am a piece of furniture.. I try and try and try but this time it ain't worth it no more..

I'm fed up trying with everything I give up! I FourMe give up I won't try anymore.. I won't try the impossible or put in effort or pray to God anymore because I am tired! Not only tired but I'm never appreciated and that is what hurts the most! Is when you try so damn much and SO hard but its never enough and never appreciated and on top of it you're made to look like the wronged one! No more! I have had enough.. I won't try anymore.. If anything is going to happen then let it happen if it won't then honestly I don't give a fuck anymore.. That is it for me I am throwing in the towel.. I won't do this anymore.. I won't fight for anything anymore.. I won't try hard and the impossible.. I have the courage but it certainly not worth wasting energy anymore when everyone is on the opposite end.. I give up.. I give up.. I give up.. I give up....

22 comments:

chikapappi said...

you know what, I am happy that you are quitting the "trying so hard" but just don't lose hope or faith!

Believe me, thing will unravel in time for you just be patient and enjoy life and your age instead of wasting time regretting or thinking of the past or what will be ahead

Gone Bonkers. said...

don't give up on hope 7abebty it can happen el amal eb Allah .. Allah eeyaser omoorich w enawlech moradech ya Fourme..

keep your beliefs firm w itha el shay feeh 5air w 9ala7 lech Allah begarbah .. kel shay fe hal dinya rizg w el rizg min wa7dah sub7anah

Delicately Realistic said...

Sometimes when u try the least, when u let things take their own course things work out for the better.

3asa ana takraho shay2an fahowa khairon lakom.
(hmm is that right?)

No identity.. said...

Hi Dear, i have been reading your blog for sometime now, but this is my first comment... anyhow i was so inspired of your blog in many ways ... as i like your attitude.. :D

Dear... la 7ayat bedoon amal.. that's one of my believes .. when god close one door for sure he opens many others .. you only have to find the key... no one should rule your life .. be sure of that and should of just fight for that .. actually that how we all shall live.. So don’t stop fighting .. we only live once..

Anonymous said...

eli eyee men allah 7ayaaah allah :D

f7ee7eely said...

maybe ur right place is on the other side --- infiltrate enemy lines and fight from within their territories :P

f7ee7eely said...

tara 3ala fekra palomino ma3zematny ib DC :P

Âme said...

Sometimes in losing you gain.

I know, I cannot say, have patience to your state of mind, but I don't have better message to convey.

~ Soul

Anonymous said...

@ f7ee7eely .. hahahahaaaa 7ilwa :P

Ms. D said...

*hugs and hushes fourme..*

nobody knows...

ur post made me cry :(

i feel like a nobody

ĐǻñĎõøðñ said...

have faith..you never know what it can throw your way =)

Limited said...

be patient and have faith .. waiting is the key .. if a door closes, 10 different ones will open .. they probably wont be what u thought or what ur used to bs keep having faith that it will all get better ..

FourMe said...

chika:
I'm happy I'm quieting too cuz somethings are simply not worth the bother..
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gb:
I agree gb bas rabich gal es3a ya 3abdi.. w ana se3ait w malait.. w sawait ely 3alay.. w ni3ma billaah..
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dr:
probably you're right and that's why I'm not trying anymore.. yup its correct..
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No identity:
Glad I was of some inspiration to someone seeing I like the ability to inspire myself.. honestly dear malait mn elamaal.. you probably have noticed from reading that I'm not much of an optimist.. I tried to be one but it ain't working so I'm dropping it.. I don't have the energy to fight anymore..
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anony:
3ala goltich.. 7ayah alaah.. wily ma yabi eyeee bil 3ana ely tel3ina..
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f7ee7eely:
thats why I stopped fighting cuz the other side is full of people who give up and I just become one of them..

afaaa hatha wana emwa9yat'ha 3alaik!! agool get your lil behind to london w a7la 3ashaa eb a7la Hakassan 7ag a7la f7ee7eely wla minat palomino :p

FourMe said...

ame~soul:
don't wana gain.. don't give a damn anymore..
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anonymous:
yes he is funny isn't he!
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ms d:
am sorry babe didn't mean to upset you ... thats just how I feel.. *hug*
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dooona:
nop sorry.. window for faith is closed..
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limited:
:)

FourMe said...

no identity:
i meant lack*

Elegant Chic said...

Dear FourMe,

Don't give up.....
Just read the below mail I received just now...

"One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
'God', I asked, 'Can you give me one good reason not to quit?'

His answer surprised me...
'Look around', He said.. 'Do you see the fern and the bamboo?'
'Yes', I replied.

'When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

'In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.' He said.
'Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared
to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6
months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.'
He asked me. 'Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots'.

'I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you.'
'Don't compare yourself to others.'

He said.
'The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern..
Yet they both make the forest beautiful.'
'Your time will come', God said to me.

'You will rise high'
'How high should I rise?'

I asked.
'How high will the bamboo rise?' He asked in return.
'As high as it can?' I questioned.
'Yes.' He said, 'Give me glory by rising as high as you can..'
I left the forest and brought back this story."

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up..
Don't tell God how big the problem is,
tell the problem how Great God is!"

Neoark said...

heeeeeeeeello~ :P

actually, i have no idea what is going on, so i have no idea what's the best advice to be given.

just one line i could say

"Tamshy al reya7 bema la tashtaheeh alsufon"

your not the only one facing it

shoosha said...

if God closes a door, he opens a window..


eshrayech feeni wana agool amthal? ;p

ĐǻñĎõøðñ said...

dont you ever lose your faith...

libero anima said...

hmm .. .i guess sometimes it's best to let everything happen on its' own =)

eshda3wa said...

ULL GET BACK ON UR FEET FIGHTING AND TRYING HARDER THAN EVER

U ALWAYS DO

f7ee7eely said...

قدهاوقدود واللللللللله

عااااد جننج تدرين
I am coming to London on the 20th -- bs I am bringing the brady bunch with me....haa hakasaan still on?:PPP