Thursday, 28 August 2008


A smile appeared upon her face as if she'd taken it directly from her handbag and pinned it there.
~Loma Chandler

Its 5 am. I can't sleep. I'm bored. Worse time of the day is at night when I'm all alone with my thoughts. I am my worst enemy. My excessive thinking is of a destructive nature. Sadness has taken over me but I am mastering the art of deception, look I am smiling :) Don't I seem happy? Oh my its a wonderful life, everything is so dandy that I am over-flowing with joy. Yes I have learned to master the matching facial expression to accompany the deceiving happy state that I am in :D You break once, you get up, you break twice you get up, you break for the millionth time you still get up with a smile on your face, like this one :) No time to cry like a baby or waste a precious second dwelling over what broke you. Rest assure no second is being spent in comforting you. You get up and you wear a smile. Once the smile is on all is dandy and pleasant and surrounded by the masses but the second you frown you're all alone. A frown leads to a sad memory, a sad memory leads to an aching pain, an aching pain leads to depression, depression leads to hitting rock bottom yet again. You've reached rock bottom for the millionth time. Now you know what to do! Get up. Wear your smile. And deceive. Well done you have mastered the art of deception. Does it matter that your smile isn't genuine? The answer is No. As long as you wear your smile you're a happy camper. Now smile yet again because the outside shell is what counts no one cares if the core is shattered. The core is hidden deep down under where it is only visible to those who dig deep enough to examine it. Tell me how many have come close to the core to witness its disintegrated state? None! Am I supposed to be surprised? Please the smile is what counts, core shmore as long as the smile is there the core can go to hell. Remember NEVER forget to smile. Here you can have mine :)

Always remember to be happy because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.
~Author Unknown


Ms. D said...

chena bs ana wenty le hny wel bagy fkhekh!

Ana i woke up cz na6ra telephone muhem! A wakeup call bs mesta7ya laish i told ths person to wake me up at 7.30 o ga3da men 6.30 cheny sa6la :p

Ms. D said...

dont smile!! Dwel in ur sorrow and grief wenty betlo3 chabdy and eventually ull go "what am gettin myself into! Am lifeless and alone"

So step by step u bring ur act together and shape up to bettering ur life.. Now u r moving towards the world, towards the society, towards the people. So that fake smile u generate in the process of getting back to society which only U thought was fake and pretencious while infact its as genuine as new babys smile when it first locks its hand on its mothers finger..

A real smile! 6al3a men ro7ich.. U didnt make urself and face smile ghasib! But they r! Cuz its a natural reaction! Believe ina iro7 taby larwa7!!

So stop battering urself and end all ur khambugeya thoughts! This smile is just a contracted muscle u flexed!! It is the extension of ur soul to the real world! Galbech yaby inas o y7ib inas bs mukhech ehwa ely 3abala its all o ena u smile bs 3ashan inas yerthon 3lech o tkonen normal..

Ooff 7achy wayd serious 3alay! Ge6a3 maylogly! Bs hatha isij..

Embrace ur smile.. Let it out let it shine and make it LOUD! E! LOUD!!!

*hums a familiar tune .. Let it out let it out, tooow ree ree toow ree ree*

Ms. D said...


Its NOT only a contracted muscle...

O bs khalas akher coment :p

Me wait 4 call :p

K.D said...

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way. Something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life"

say.. where do you get your smiles from..?!
i say change the place..

just a lil small question.. who are you smiling for?!
if you know that no one really knows.. or understands..
then who are you pretending for?!
and if you are doing it coz you don't wanna snap.. or if you didn't fake it.. you won't have a genuine one!!

as far as i'm concern.. it doesn't matter if you are the happiest or the saddest.. you won't make it alive!.. heck!! this might be your last day!
and you have your own philosophy bout faking smiles!!

"Enjoy yourself. It's later than you think"
"Live every day as if it were your last and then some day you'll be right"

i really hope that you get what i'm tryin to tell you!
in the mean time.. you can come to me for genuine smiles..
i charge 2.5 comments for each one!
unless you want an organic genuine smile.. that would cost 3 comments! :)

Âme said...

Life sucks !

Fake it as much as you can until you cannot differentiate between fake and real.

~ Soul

Shoush said...

Well.. psychologically when u make ur face muscles smile, u get a slight rush of positive energy. It's a mood-lifter.

ZaMaHReeR said...


..::Amu::.. said...

Apart from all ur sleeping story I love the quote at the end!

Anonymous said...


:::ShoSho::: said...

very beautiful quote!

Soul said...

7abait hal post waaaaaayed..
so real..
mabi smile zaiiiin! abi a6ale3 elsani ;p

ĐǻñĎõøðñ said...

your post strikes too close to home :(
bs tadreen shino?? i find that when i smile, it makes me happier just seeing myself that way. maybe i believe the emotion im trying to fake...i dunno =D

Mariam said...

reminds me of this song