Saturday, 24 May 2008
Not only I woke up on the wrong side of the bed but I woke up on the wrong side of the world! I felt crap from the second I woke up as a result of an ukhh dream I had. Which trigged mood swings all day long. So instead of going out during the day while the weather was good for a change I stay in and start cracking on the 2nd book of the Shopaholic series. I read for 3 hours non stop and that was a first, I have never read something continuously for that period of time. You could say I was escaping reality and I didn't want to think of anything.
You know what I said it once and I'll say it again, destiny is a bitch and that is iT! Yesterday I decide to put this whole soulmate thing behind me and today I have a horrible dream about him so that was the kick-off to a crappy day but Noo it doesn't stop there. I'm invited to dinner and must attend, where to? Well to one of "our" favourite places and not only that but as well we get seated in the exact same table that we had dinner at a while back!! Ya3nii for God's sake give me a damn break I'm fucking tried of this crap! When I decide to fucking move on or what ever you may call it this bitching life, destiny what ever the fuck you wanna call it keeps reminding me of him !! Its not fair I don't care what anyone says its not fair I need a fucking break, its not fair :(
I am very angry at the moment but I don't know at whom! Him? Myself? Fucking life that keeps forcing me to go in an endless loop, even though I'm trying to break loose! O ba3dain ya3nii laih fucking meta !! I am fucking tired, Give me a fucking break will you !!?