Heads up: If this post makes no sense and is incoherent then just screw it and don't give me a hard time!
I think No I know I am an insomniac, maybe a semi-insomniac. I don't know but I'm definitely some sort of an insomniac. You have no idea how much I miss sleeping! I do sleep but after an agonizing routine after I feel my mind and body have exceeded their daily limit of the ability to function.
By the way I'm typing this post with one finger, I'm on the verge of collapsing. It's 6 something AM!! I know if I go to bed now I won't be able to sleep so I have to drain myself completely to be able to sleep.
Since a young age I always slept late, so its not a new thing, its part of the me but with the whole mess with this 'soulmate' ordeal I have completely lost the ability to sleep. I fear going to bed.. The second I lay my head on the pillow 10 million memories rush through my brain its like a flood rushing through, not only that but a million question to! How, why, for what reason, and an endless endless list goes on.. that process takes an additional hour or so. So not only I can't sleep at a decent hour but on top of it I have to suffer an hour or 2 before I'm able to get some shut eye. La w ya rait it's a good night sleep!
Do you know how it feels, do you know how emotionally and physically draining it is, do you know how much I'm tired, do you know how much I'm being pushed to my daily limit each day, do you know how much I'm dying to sleep?? No really SLEEP.. just for one night I swear to God I just want a One good night sleep . . . . .
I am so tired..
Now I'm completely drained.. I shall hit the sack..
Good pissing m0rning to you all..