Sunday, 2 March 2008
Hate to Hate
1. Things I'm Hating..
Where shall I start from ?! There are insignificant things that I'm hating but there are Major things that I'm hating as well..
Minor Hate Issues:
1. I hate that I'm not able to curse (I only curse in English) while writing these posts because I don't want anyone to think I'm vulgar. I'm not I just express myself better when I'm swearing! That's just part of who I am and all of you are going to have to accept it if you want to continue reading this blog!
2. I hate people calling me 'Baby' when its a term of endearment and only my soul mate has the right to call me that!
3.I have my Kuwaiti number with me and its on 24/7. What I hate is those flipping sms's being sent every hour advertising some crap that I won't ever need or purchase. As well bitching Zain sending me the number and address of the embassy here twice a day in English and Arabic!!
4. Every where you go or do people are trying to find out the real you, your name, your number, your social upbringing, your believes, your values, and the list goes on.. For the love of god if I want to keep my anonymity let me why do you want to know everything?! Regardless of the situation, I'm the type that keeps to herself and give out personal information on my own timetable not on your demand!
5. I hate Google Reader- Fine I appreciate the idea that there is something that can tell you who posted something new but I like to personally click on each blog to see if they updated it, it's more personal that way. When I deleted the post ' . . . . . ' after I wrote it by couple of hours I didn't like the rest of the world having a copy of it! It's not that I regret writing it I just wrote it in a moment of weakness (yes I admit I had my moment and I HATE IT). I just don't think it's right!
Major Hate Issues:
6. I'm hating the fact that I'm confiding in strangers (No Offence) rather thn my 'loved one'. I hate that I'm able to complain and bitch here while I don't have 1 person that I completely trust! I hate the fact that I lost trust in humanity!
7.I hate not having enough concentration to finish my dissertation.
8. I really hate the fact that I know I'm sulking and moping around . Its like I can see myself going through it but there is nothing I can do to help her :(
Note to FourMe: (I'm sorry babe but I swear there is nothing I can do to help you. You have to pick yourself up and get the fuck over it, you deserve better than this by faaaaaaaar)
9. I HATE HATE HATE that I am still madly, pathetically, head over heels in love with him! I hate it to the extant it's making me angry at myself for still being in love with him! I HATE that after each prayer I am praying to God that he removes him from my heart and makes me forget him! He's a part of my SOUL! Do you know how it feels to lose your soul?! No you don't but I do because I'm fucking empty there is nothing inside me...Its like I'm a walking zombie! I laugh and smile but its just a never ending act. . . . . I Hate IT!
10. I HATE HIM !